Sorry

Everyone thinks that I'm this rock to lean against
but never knowing that I'm as see through as a picket fence

I cry all the time and no one knows, I'm crying now
I sit here and think "what could I have changed?"

What is wrong with me, I can't keep a girlfriend for the life of me.
If this is the plan, then please let me die and leave me be

Please don't tease me with thoughts of love
Please don't try to be my friend, I'm not a shoulder to rub

You had your chance and now it's gone
I hate being second best, but I've been it for so long

When I'm all alone, in the dark, I just sit here and cry
So i just put on some music and write wishing that I'd die

So I'm sorry if I dated you, sorry to have hurt you
I guess I just wanted something, but I wasn't for you

Sorry to say that you've moved on, I never do
Sorry to say, that No matter what. I still love you.

Sorry that I was to scared to scare you away to say that to you
I hope that if you do find a person he makes you happy

(this is my first attempt at a poem in a long time. I had to do something instead of sitting here and stirring. A woman who I cared for very dearly just broke my heart by asking for an open relationship, where We could still go out on dates, but we could also see other people.

"perhaps I know why it is man who laughs, for it is he alone that suffers so much that he had to invent laughter" - Not my quote...but it's so true!