Hello boy it's been a while
When did I last see you smile?
There's so much I want to say
Since you left on Christmas Day
These few weeks just feel like ages
Like chapters of torn, ancient pages
Parchments that finally breathe clean air
After eons hidden in darkened lairs
But I feel ten thousand times more
Kept shrouded from him who I adore
Like a distraught girl awaiting in dire
For the sailor to return her true desire
Daily I dream and make-believe
To hide away my painful grief
I wonder if you'd ever knew
How I have always felt for you
Those letters I've secretly penned
Kept in my drawer but never sent
Those times I pass your house and stare
But you were always never there
I guess I'm just really afraid
Things will go awry instead
Like if you knew my purest of pain
You might not want to see me again
Boy I fear but need your love
Like plastic hands on rubber gloves
Would you wear and then throw me away?
Or keep me safe for another day?
I guess I long to breathe your air
To feel your arms hold me bare
But the fear of being tainted seeps
Especially when I taste those poisonous lips
No matter how much I shove, and push you away
You're always there to stay
Like strolling on a beach with silver sand
I just want to walk and hold your hand
But even if we're never together
And it seems like this will be forever
I just want you to know that right from the start
You've left your prints etched in my heart
