Missing you

Heat rising from the vent
music pounding in my ear
with a picture of us in front of me
I'm wishing you were here
i close my eyes
feel your lips on mine
i feel you arms around my hips
i can't stop crying
my tears hit my bed
like speeding bullets
look down,
theres the trigger, just pull it
i feel the blade on my wrist
just as painful as our first kiss
pointless to feel these feelings you say
pointless to cry
useless to miss you
meaningless to ask why
it pains me just to look at you
yes we are teenagers
but what if it were better
what if we were still together
friends we remain
but i still feel the pain
and oh how i miss you
my once close lover
now just another
friend i pass by