Pathetic

I’m sitting here with all my thoughts
Wondering if the damage can be healed
It breaks my heart to think of you
And all the pain that was concealed

I'm sitting here with the greatest of sorrow
Wondering how I could be so dumb
I've destroyed a love so beautiful
I've made him go completely numb

I'm sitting here with pathetic tears
But only having myself to blame
My insecurity became our death
Oh God, how I hate this game

I'm sitting here asking for your mercy
I'll understand if you can’t give it
But I hope you do understand
It was not my purpose to kill us