Here I Go Again (Part 2)

I guess I must be immature
I just don't know for sure
For one year, I had a crush
The next three, love washed me to shore

You welcomed me with a smile
Saying I make you laugh
Ha ha... this isn't funny
I might get a heart attack

I feel fat around my belly
Maybe it is stress
Cortisol won't hurt me
But maybe the feelings I suppress

I used to think you loved me
And now I know the truth
I am just a friend
Giving advice to you

When I made my confession
You sheltered it with discretion
I still wish you would know
How much I love you so

But sometimes words can't take the place
Of bringing a smile to your face
I want to win this race
But we're headed separate ways

Fly, my darling bird
Please fly far away
It's useless, I suppose
In my heart, you'll always stay

When I don't want to think of you
I accidentally do
When I try to walk alone
The surroundings remind me of you

I woke up this morning, hoping that
It was all just a dream
I broke my heart to help you
And now, my love, you're free

I still wish in a way that you'd feel
Our conversations that seem so real
I told you a secret, my love
But you flew away like a dove

Please don't try to chase
The reason I can't face
Your new girl with a straight smile
I still wish I could cry

I want tears to come,
But there are none
Just tired eyes
And my hurt deep inside

If I told him I loved him,
It wouldn't help
I already said it
And he did as well

Is love just a game
To play away pain
Or do others use it
To feel the same?

I don't know what to do
I know I still love you
But the simple truth
Is I broke my own heart in two