Hurt.

I always think about the pain im causing you
The things I say and the things I do,
They always end up hurting you
I start to wonder why im here
I think about how much ive hurt you,
It makes me shed a tear
The cuts get deeper everyday
Not much you can do, not much you can say
Is this the way of life?
Bringing people down
Making them sad and making them frown
Seeing you smile is different than seeing anyone else smile
Whenever im with you, you make me forget about all the bad things,
I dont know how I could hurt someone I love so much
But I have
A lot
im surprised that were still together
It shows me you believe in me
Which not a lot of people do
I dontt know what id do without you here helping me through
These things each and every day
Looking into your eyes makes me remember all the good times weve shared and I don�¢ï¿½ï¿½t want those to go away
youve done everything right for me,
To help me,
And keep me away things that arentt good
And I love you for that
I feel that I keep telling you things,
In little bits,
And each bit you hear gets worse and worse

im scared im going to do something I shouldnt and
im going to lose everything that we ever had
I dont know how to find my way through this
Its like finding a needle in a hay stack
I dont want to want to go back and redo things
Thats the one thing ive been wanting lately
Things are getting out of hand
Getting to hectic
im trying my very hardest to accept it
But its hard
Waking up each morning and faking a smile thats not really there
I fool people
Even the ones I love most with this smile
You fall for it to.
theres not much I can do
Sitting here wondering where life will take me
im beginning to think all it�¢ï¿½ï¿½s going to do is break me
Each day is like watching the lines on the road past
It does everything but go fast
youre the reason I smile
The reason I wake up in the morning
But I know ive been making things hard lately and Im sorry
I pick up the gun
Sit there and think
Wanting to pull the trigger so bad
But thinking back to you
And how much it hurt you, it would kill me inside
Knowing that this would do nothing for you
And only for me
Which makes me selfish
But if thats the only thing that this bullet will make me
Then why not.
The tears fall
I hold it closer to my head
And then I see our picture on my wall
Looking happy as can be
I turn around so I cant see it
I need to get you out of my mind
And remember about all this crap
The stuff that causes me this pain
But when I really think about it
im the one whose causing my own pain
Life is just one big game
Games always have a loser,
And thats why there always fun
im the loser and now im holding this gun
My life is over
And so is the game
No more you
No more strain
No more us
No more pain.