Alone i lay, direction less, and with out a sense of right and wrong. my morals, the guidelines to my life have failed me, they now lay shattered around me, of no use to me, no longer able to show me the \"right\" thing to do. my heart, has always gotten me in trouble, and guides me only in the direction of safety, away from my fear of pain, away from my fear of the pain of loss. so many things in my life on hold, so many things pending judgment, waiting for me to figure out what will guide me to the next stage of my life. and amongst all this, amongst all the chaos there is something i see clearly; there is one thing i am sure about, and that thing is u Kelli. amongst all the feelings i am sorting through, all the things pending judgment i know how i feel about u, i know what role i want u to play in my life. i do no understand it, i do not know by logic, and i do not know by my heart, i know by everything; and that is what makes me so sure about u. please wake up and see me for who i am; please dont hurt me, dont leave me here alone.
