Sorry

This is the saddest apology,
That I'll ever say.
This is the loneliest apology,
And to this day.
I want to say sorry,
For all the pain you went through.
Sorry for the hurt,
For the old and the new.
But most of all,
I'm sorry for you.
Sorry for your lies,
Sorry for the thing you do.
Sorry for the hurt you caused,
Sorry for the tears I cry.
Sorry I still love you,
Sorry I have to ask why.
Sorry I still wait for your call,
Sorry that I let you close.
Sorry I wanted to be with you,
Sorry this is what hurts the most.
Sorry I'm alone because of you,
Sorry your heart is so cold.
Sorry I can't say goodbye,
Sorry that its my heart you hold.
Sorry I can't call you,
Sorry I'm not brave enough.
Sorry I have to fake a smile,
Sorry I have to be tough.
Sorry I'm not skinny,
Sorry I don't starve myself.
Sorry I'm not perfect,
Sorry for myself.
Sorry that sorry isn't enough,
Sorry that I'm still here.
Sorry I"m not on the verge of suicide,
Sorry you're not near.
Sorry I can't say this to you,
Sorry I'm too scared.
Sorry I;m letting go,
Sorry if I dare.