Everytime you say those words I
cringe wondering how much truth
is realy in them...
When you look into my eyes, I surrender myself to you. Seeing the trust in your eyes and letting you do what you do best.
Although you say you mean it when you tell me you love me. But I just can't accept it, and all I can do is push you away and be alone.
It is the only way I know how to be.
Unloved, uncared for, and alone...
I want it so bad. I need you so much. But I just can't handle it. Being loved. Having someone that cares about me like you do. It's too hard.
Always wondering if today will be the day you leave me. So I do it for you. Before you get the chance. Not wanting to get hurt. I stay by myself and refuse to see you, or answer your calls.
And I cry. All day and each night. Just crying myself to sleep. Cause I have pushed you and everyone I ever loved away. Hoping you will be happier. That I will be happier.
Thinking I don't deserve you, or your love no matter what you say or do.
