And It's hard not to

I'm trying so hard to keep my composure.
Hiding my thoughts and feelings from the rest of the world.
...& I'm lost in the darkness...

Pushing away fast before I become attached.
You reached for my hand-I slip through reality.
...& I'm falling behind...

Never ending doubt surrounds my thoughts.
My insecurities are swallowing you whole-covering you with lies.
...& I'm starting to break fast...

The more you try to keep me around, the worse it gets.
This pain is unbearable, it hurts so bad-you want to know why.
...& I'm scared to death...

Somehow you came and took all my pain away.
I know that I can't replay all the love that you gave.
...& I'm slowly slipping...

All the emptiness I battle: trying hard not to let it show.
Leave,... so I can finally stop loving you.
...& I'm burning inside...