Suicidal Love

I wonder what would happen
If I chose to say goodbye
To leave all my pain here
To leave this life behind

I wonder what would happen
If I chose to end my life
Would you even notice me
Or are you as unaware as you seem

Are you playing hard to get
Or are you really hard at all
Are you really so hateful
Or do you just despise us all

I wonder if I said I loved you
If youd just laugh
Or try to argue
But this is something real
Im only telling you whats true

Everyone always tells me
To listen to my heart
To keep the outside world out
And learn what loves about

But what I keep forgetting
Is how to say its true
To tell some one I Love You
And to assure them its the truth

Ive asked everyone around me
But no one seems to care
About a little girl
Whos feelings need to be shared

So will someone please guide me
This broken tortured soul
Before I turn it all around
And decide to end it all