Telling Yourself the Truth

*Me and my sister wrote this together*

Each day you close your eyes afraid to really try,
You tell yourself don't love him-you tell yourself don't cry.
A brighter fantasy without death,
Live in an Ecstasy as sweet as meth.
You convince yourself to believe your own lies,
Fool yourself before your heart dies.
You can live without him-
you know you'll be okay,
You never really needed him-
glad he didn't stay.
The only reason you kept him-
was so you wouldn't be alone,
He was there just taking up space-
and now he's better off gone.
Yet you look into the mirror-
behind your eyes you see his reflection,
All this time you've been breathing lies-
your greatest self deception.
Reality crashes hard-
he was the strength you used to carry on,
the only reason you woke up-
and lived through each dawn.
You'll always be my superman even though you're no longer here,
It will be you words I remember to take away the fear.
Into the dark I cry your name and know it's so unfair,
Because...
My fears rise a little more each time I...
I die a little more inside every time I...
I know I can't go on because I...
realize you'll never be there.