Fear

It gives me the determination,
yet pulls me down.
it's always growing,
subsiding only when i catch up.
each break i take,
makes me fall even behind.
despite doing everything i can,
there's always no chance of me catching up.
looking around me,
i realized I'm left all alone.
i question myself everyday:
is this the life i truly want..
always walking around with the growing fear inside me---
the fear of failing when everyone is succeeding...