Speechless

She leaves me speechless
She leaves me hurt.
Left to cry
Left to search
No more expectations
No more smiles
My heart will hurt for many miles.

There's a hole at the bottom
As I will say
It doesn't get bigger,
but it doesn't go away.
She only cares about her self.
If only she knew,
If only she felt.

I do not wish for her to die,
Or be taken away.
But she makes me hurt
in such a way.
I want for her to be normal,
is that bad?
Is that just too much to ask?

[ I wrote this on June 9th 2005]