Without you

I woke up that day
with tears across my face
the night before was hell again
all the memories are erased.

There is nothing anymore
when I look in your eyes
just empty space
only filled with your lies

Thinking to myself again
how I held on all these years
waiting for your love
blinded by all the tears

I've moved on
you were never the one
I love him now
it's all said and done

I forgot who I was
and everything I used to be
it used to be love
now can you see what you did to me?

All of this pain
will never go away
behind this smile
is a cold rainy day

Just one time
I need to have someone there
If I said it was him
would you even care?

That was then
so come back a few years
when I thought we were friends
and there weren't any tears

My book comes to a close
leaving your pages behind
you mean nothing to me
and these pages are no longer lined

Lined...with blood
from the heart of hell
burning so coldly
a whisper turns into a yell

My mind is so confused
without you in my heart
I guess it is better this way
you still love to tear me apart

To think I would always love you
was a mistake to forget
never thought I could say this
but all these years. I regret

If you didn't see
that I was slipping away
you never would have came for me
even if my love was to stay

Thank you for my heart back
tattered pieces you hand me
I'm leaving for good now
I hope maybe someday you will see

You were too blind
to see what was in front of you
when you fall for me
I wont catch you... So what are you going to do?

Some day you will love
the way that I did
sorry the bet is over…
boy, you were outbid

I don't know what I saw
but your face in my dreams
that is gone now
reality isn't what it seems

I lay down that night
tears in my eyes after today
not because I love you
but because I will finally be OK