Counting up to death

1, 2, 3, 4,
please stop knocking
on my door

5, 6, 7, 8,
i need more love
and much less hate

9, 10, 11, 12,
deep into this pain
i delve

13, 14, 15, 16,
why is this world
so d*mn mean?

17, 18, 19, 20,
this cage is locked
there is no key

21 1/2, 22, 23,
i think I'm drowning
in the sea

24, 25, 26, 27,
take my life
to H*ll or Heaven

28, 29, 30, 31,
k*ll me, shoot me
with a gun

32, 33, 34, 35,
i no longer wish
to be alive

36, 37, 38, 39,
no, I'm not alright
i haven't been fine

40.5, 41, 42,
it hurts so much
i wish you knew

43, 44, 45, 46,
i don't f*ck guys
i just f*ck their d*cks

47, 48, 49, 50,
i think blood
is really nifty