Retreating

I've been writing of my pain
Of things I've lost
My heart has grown cold
Its starting to frost.

I cant find the warmth
It seems I once had
I know deep down
Things aren't that bad.

I'm still here breathing
I am alive
I can get past this
I have to, to survive.

Shutting doors, erasing pain
Its wearing on my mind
Turns out its not that easy
To leave some things behind.

I just cant stand this darkness
The feeling I'm alone
Although really I am,
This battle is my own.

And so I sit in silence
Closing out it all
Retreating into my mind
To sit by my waterfall.

Secluded, my own
Surrounded by tall green trees
I sit on that sunny rock
And listen to the breeze.

I see little fish through clear water
Exotic animals here and there
Its here I find my peace
Where I don't have to care.