Best Of Depression (1)

So Nice To Have You All Today
Welcome To My Theater Of Dream
Ride Hell While Watching My Play
But Be Silent When I Scream

Now That You Have Entered My Territory
Its Time For You To Paint My Dreams Come True
These Tears Won't Shed For Free
Bleeding Smile We Yet Have To Go Through

I Am So Glad To Have You All With Me
Welcome To My Theater Of Dream
This Is The Place You Were Supposed To Be
So Respect My Agony When I Scream

I Have Been Standing On The Edge
And I Have Been Falling Forever
Hoping To Hit Reality Someday
But These Nightmares Don't Leave Me Ever

Serpents Shoot Venom In Me Like Past
Overshadowing My Future And Push Them To Last
Swimming In This Burning Lake Of My Desires
Every Inch Of Felicity Gradually Expires

Morpheus Is No More Friend Of Mine
As Strangers Have Captured My Peace
Domiciled In The Tears I Am Cryin
For Years This Heart Has Ceased

Lying Alone Under This Black Sky Of Hatred
Breathing In This Air, Feel So Suffocated
So Numb Now, Your Words Just Passes Me By
I Have So Many Of You To Kill Before I Die

Same Old Breaths, Same Old Nights And Days
Different Excuses For Different Killing Ways
This Love That We Had, Now Seems So Strange
As All The Intense Passion Has Turned Into Rage

Alone So Alone Floating On This Endless River Of Time
Making Love To The Smoke Of My Funeral Pyre
And I Turn To Ashes With My Heart Falling Apart
Still Beating While Licking This Fading Fire

My Life Is Like A Tattoo On Misery
That Shine On Every Breath I Take
Glowing More Than Pearls Of Blood I Spit
When I Remind Myself Of My Mistakes

Voices Of Scratching Nails Echoes From Every Corner
Feeling Numb As I Watch My Still Heart At The Backyard
Crimson Stains Glows In The Stillness Of Darkness
Far Beneath The Sacred Dust Of My Living Graveyard

Moon Seems To Bleed Since I Took My Last Breath
Stars Seem To Fade On The Honour Of My Last Rites
Escaping Memories From The Prison Of My Past
Breaking Walls Around My Grave In My Lonely Nights

They Said An Axe Under My Pillow Would Give Me Peace
And They Threw Holy Sand From My Face To My Knees
Brushed Birch Twig On The Edges Of My Shining Grave
Ripped Myocardium Apart From The Love They All Gave

I Guess Its Only Me Looking For An Excuse To Be Depressed
So Addicted Now Of Blaming Others, I Think I Am Obsessed
But Then This Is How Circle Of Life Is Suppose To Rotate
When Everybody Is Falling In Love My Heart Is Loving To Hate

My Life Has Been A Rainbow With Shades Of Grey
Now The Brightest Of Them Is Simply Fading Away
Pushed Back And Forth By My Destiny's Tide
And I Just Kept On Learning Ways To Survive

Bending Till I Break, So That I Could Pray
Screaming Till He Hears What I Have To Say
Searching For A Piece Of My Lost Pride
Dying Everyday While Learning Ways To Survive

** Just thought of sharing favorite stanzas from my own poems written so far.