Razor blade salvation

Hi sweet razor
i haven't seen you in a wile
I've tried to stay away
but I've walked a cold mile
I've tried to stop myself
but its the only thing that helps
when nothing and no one is there for you
nothing your told is aether a lie or true
everything is spinning, spinning
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out of control
i can't hold back anymore
i tried so hard to leave my old friend
but once again my arm needs to mend
you help make sure thats i still feel pain
back to reality no longer being hit by numbing rain
blood flowing over my arm
and every time i look down
I'm reminded of how many times I've done this
how many scars are there
and i cry in despair
why my sweet friend do u cause me so much relief but so much confusion
this life sometimes isn't worth living
i go through it a lot without feeling
and when i wanna feel i cut my arm
and it all comes rushing in, in a blur of pain
and I'm hit in the face with reality telling me
this isn't right
but you know what my sweet dear friend
you'll be around possible to the very end