How is it
that i can hurt those that are closest to me?
Yet I never can fathom how
it is that I do it.
How is it
that every action I do
every word i say
has an impact on their behavior?
Is it me?
Am i doing something wrong?
Is my very being cursed with
this pain, this trauma?
The fact that i might lose you, the very thought burns through my mind, melting all else in its path.
It aches, constantly, that something so trivial,
something so small,
so insignificant,
would have such a devastating effect on your life.
I don't want to lose you,
I don't want to see you avert your gaze once more.
For every time you do, it cuts me.
It cuts me deep,
and i see the blood of our connection slowly trickling away.
Because losing you would be the hardest thing to bare.
Come back to me now,
and heal this wound.
I don't want to lose you
