The Man That Stood in the Way of Happiness

For years i felt all alone,
Like there was no where to go,
I would drown myself in tears,
And pray that god would call me home.

My feelings were all the same,
They were constantly filled with pain,
To cut myself everyday,
Was the only way to shift the blame.

Deep down i know it wasn't my fault,
But the responsibility he will never claim,
After each disgusting act,
I could only wonder when he was coming back again.

After a while i got used to it,
Although the hurt would still remain,
My only defence was to speak out,
But i am still too afraid.

Now when i look him in the eyes,
The one question i ask him is why,
I'm not doing anything wrong,
Is all he can say as a reply.

He doesn't just hurt me,
He never thought of the family,
What they would do if they knew,
All the misery he was causing me.