I'm Afraid

I walk in and I take a seat,
So anxious, looking at my feet...

The doctor walks in to talk to me,
Should i look serious or keep smiling?

He tells me I should've taken a stroke the previous day,
I'm only 16, what could i possibly say?!?

"We've found something in your heart,"
Why does it feel like I'm falling apart?

"You'll live with this for the rest of your life,"
Why isn't anything going right!!!

"Your heart will race and cause you pain,"
Are you kidding me? I'm going to go insane!

"We're looking for anemia and a possible blood disease,"
God, be with me now... please!

"We'll take some tests and study some more,"
The doctors was never like this before!

"It's possible that this could be bad,"
POSSIBLE? I'm finding out stuff i never knew i had!

"We're going to make a plan to help you"
Someone tell me this isn't true...

The most important thing you have is your heart,
It helps you love, hurt, end, and make a start...

The most important people in your life are your friends,
They are the only ones there through the breaks and bends...

How do you tell them that they've found something in your heart,
How do you even come up with a possible start?

The tears fill up as i start to cry...
This is happening and I DON'T KNOW why!

I never did anything, this is so unfair!
Tell me that these things aren't really there!

I'm living everyday as if it was my last...
Time to be me and forget the past...

I'm not afraid of pain or dying...
I'm just afraid of time and crying...

I'm afraid I'll miss out on things I'm waiting for!
I'm afraid I'll leave the people who i completely adore!

I'm afraid that one attack will be my last,
I'm afraid that the end will come so fast!

I was never afraid before in life...
Now, I'm so scared, i can't sleep at night...