A Promises I Made

***This is just after my brake up with my boyfriend***

I want to cut my skin
I need to see my blood drip red
But even though hes not with me anymore
I don't want to disappoint him I promised him I wouldn't cut
I tried to break my addiction but right now
I feel so very numb I need to know if I am truly alive
Why did he have to do this leaving me so wouldn't told me he loved me he said we were soul soul mates
I was stupid enough to believe him
Now look at me I'm a total wreak with out him
So I ask my self to keep my promises or not
To cut or not to cut ha
Its a real tough question isn't it