Under the Knife...Summer '06

I must be dreaming,
There is no way this is real.
I'm watching my life, but not living it,
I can't even feel.

I should be able to move my leg,
Just lift it one little inch.
Am i asleep? I must be,
So just give me a pinch.

No, it is not a dream,
This is my life.
It is painful not to be able to fight,
Sometimes it's hard going under the knife.

That is what got me here,
A surgery gone wrong.
But for a year I have fought,
Everyone says I am strong.

But I am not.
I cried every night this summer,
Just wishing for my old life;
Playing soccer and being a drummer.

This is a fight I can not win.
I try so hard,
But I can't try anymore.
Because of summer '06, I will always be scarred.

-Erin Floto (c)