Entrapments of subliminal thoughts captured by agonizing pain from temper tantrums of the past. Caught in the moment of then and not so much of now, being fooled, being under-graded for your beautiness, not knowing what to do or who to go to. You’ve found one person, but so unsure of the truth that lyes beyond his teachings or his words at the moment. Being lost in a paradise while with him and then lost in hell while not together, moments that seemed to last forever all seemed to be lost in one moment just as you awaken from that lovely dream, back into the real world of all satanic judgments of individuals that you thought you knew, but finding that you really knew nothing about them. Lessons learned while stuck in a grind, learning that you can’t trust them as you can do some, and at the same time he may be the only one. Thinking to hard, sleeping to long, wondering if, wondering why, lying to yourself, lying to others, what does it all bring to you, other than discomfort?
