I've Never (Part 2 of 3)

As I scream into my pillow
And try to slam the door
Listen to the radio
Sit down on the floor

I cannot feel the skin
My soul is trapped within
I can just feel my eyes
Watch the hours pass on by

I've never looked in a mirror
Every single day
I've finally tried to
That alone, to me, is brave

I'm scared of seeing myself
Because deep inside
Is this scared, lonely girl
That always wants to hide

I've never believed in Santa
So it feels like a lie
To tell my four-year-old cousin
That Santa's alive

I've never had many valentines
Or birthday presents
I'm too shy to ask
And not used to acceptance

As the years pass by
Those "I've nevers" turn into
I haves
Because I've tried

I'm scared of guys, 'cause they're different
From my usual friends that are girls
I've built a tall tower and chained myself in
To escape the outside world