Tears

Gazing out the window,
smiling to myself,
even to this day i haven't shed a tear,
thinking of you last year

you brought light into the world,
you never had a bad day,
you earnt everyones respect
in some ways you were perfect

you reached out to others,
always had a friend by your side
always had a smile on your face
always had a warm embrace

you lived your life to the fullest
you used every single breath,
when i look at pictures of you
all i have sketched in my mind are newspaper clippings "18 yr old death"

why did god let it happen
why not me instead of you
why'd we drink that night
i thought you only had a few

now i carry all this blame
i feel bad i didn't die
but i still carry on
even though i never got to say goodbye.

i miss you so much
i think of all the good times
and thats what got me through
those hard and rough times

Gazing out the window,
smiling to myself
i felt a tear slide down,
i wish you were still around...