As i lay down....

As I lay down in this big hollow field
up to my head in lies and pain
lost in this empty world
I wish I could please everyone
do everything you want me too
but my life is dying along with my heart
the one I love is mad at me
doesn't want me in her life
my friends are starting to turn on me
I don't know what to do
it seems like I like her
but I still love the one I love
but I really don't want to hurt anymore
I don't want to hurt anyone
I'm starting to over flow
I miss my love and her smile
but I don't understand what I did
I was nice to her all the time
I never complained or anything
but now my heart is absent from my body
my soul is turning black
and I want to give in and cry
but I wont give up
I'll stay in this until the end
I really hope everything will change
and work its self out
but if it doesn't change its OK for me
because when it starts to rain in this field
it will hide my never ending tears
that will be flowing out of my eyes
because to many people are getting hurt
and my life is going to change
maybe for the best or for the worst
I loved her with all my heart
she was my life but if she doesn't want me
to show my love and do the things I do
its OK so when I'm crying in the field
I decided to name "my mind"
I'll be miss you all and everything
but I guess for some my love is nothing
but its ok for some reason
I know I will always love her
she's part of my life and always will be
but just leave me alone in this field
I just need to think and forget everything