Walking down a crowded street
I dont know what to believe anymore
There are more lies, more doubt
In this world than I have ever known
Im suffocating where I am
But I would die if I were to leave
Stay or walk, give up or give in
Its not a question of right and wrong
This is a question of what weighs more
What means more, what is wanted more
What Im ready to give up, what I never had
What I have now, and what I want more than ever
Time is either on your side, or against you
It either pressures you or lets you let go
This isnt a question of what is wanted
This is a valuable that everybody needs
Time has me in a chokehold
Anything I decide will be wrong
I dont have much time left,
As I sit down and put my shoes on
I tie my shoelaces, as I look up
There you are looking down at me
I sit back down and take my shoes off
Here I am, a mess on the floor
I dont know what to do so I put my shoes back on
I get up as I think, This is one of those things
You wish for wish on every shooting star
But know it wont ever come true, as I open the door
As I bury myself in my thoughts
I take first one step, then two, then three
As my walk turns into a run, I know
Im running away from something I want so badly
There is a bitter chill in the air as I run
There is no happy ending to this story
This story Im making of my life
Because I always run, run from everything
I run from what I want
What I hate, what I love
What I need, what Ive lost
Who cares, and who loves me
I try to blame others, when in reality
I cant accept what choices I make
I cant accept the coward Ive become
But at the same time I cant change who I am
My tears freeze going down my face
As the bitter cold breeze nips at my face
My feet still pounding the ground
At the same rate they always have
These frozen tears fall for you
For what could have been, for what I want so badly
These aches in my heart are for you
For where you should still be
Maybe someday Ill change, turn around
Instead of running away, Ill take what I want
Love what I have, see what I need
I love you! my head screams as our hands slip
I wish I had the strength to hold on
To tell I love you, I dont want you to leave
But as I turn and run, my heart breaks
This is how my life began, and this is how it will end
This is how I live my life
Its not how I want, but how I do
I love you, maybe someday
Someday, Ill stop being so afraid.
Until then, I have nothing to give you
Guilty conscience is killing me, you deserve happiness
Someday Ill be able to give you all of my everything
So until then.
