Life or death

When i die were will i go
heaven, hell who does know
what awaits me in the next life
can i be sure there is one

do i deserve to die or shall i suffer
suffer and watch everyone i love die
these drugs get my high but they tell false stories and lies
shall i ease my pain now and go,
cut my wrist and leave everything behind
watch everyone intertwine
as they dance in gods great glory

I'm not man enough to kill myself
i don't dare
why do i bother know one else cares
I'm talking to myself
listen to yourself... i shout
get a hold of your life
stuff the drugs
live and let die

I've got to watch myself blossom and grow like vines on a wall creeping to the top
if i change my life now will it be to late
only one way to see