Love Through Denial

I'm alone out here
And you're alone inside.
I think to myself
How I wish I was by your side.

I've seen the sorrow
That fills your eyes.
I've seen the look on your face;
Seems as though you wish ta cry.

My feelings for you
I've kept a secret.
I long ta tell you
But I fear I'll regret it.

I saw your last relation
And how you were treated by that guy.
Though it ate me up inside watching it all
I knew it was best ta not speak and pass by.

Doubt began ta then fill my mind.
How could I call myself a friend?
Letting you take all of that
And just watching up ta the very end.

I remember the day so vivid
When he finally broke up.
I remember thinking exactly
That you'd already been through enough.

Thought maybe I'd get my chance.
But just my luck
I came ta realize the truth:
In this position forever I'll be stuck.

I thought I liked you
But knew you didn't like me.
Realizing my future with you
I just could not see.

We come from different backgrounds
And total different life styles.
Though no matter how much I did try
I can't recall once ever making you smile.

Change happened all of the sudden
May have seemed I had turned stone cold;
Complete ignorance, complete denial.
Nowadays those actions seem too bold.

Honestly I did care.
Hard to believe, I did it for you.
I truly thought this would be in your favor.
I just didn't know what else ta do!