The lies I conceal
Are the monsters that I bread,
That tear at my heart as I bleed
Out all that I do need
To survive here on out.
"I don't even know what we're about"
Weighs heavy at my heart, I wanna shout.
But even in that I still have doubt.
I can't see what I've wrote on this line;
I can't see the rhythm to my rhyme.
I can see I'll loose every time;
I can see I'm going blind.
I can taste the sorrow
Of today, of tomorrow.
What do I continue on for?
I believe it's for the look you bore.
That dreadful look as you stared into my eyes;
That dreadful look as you confronted all my lies.
That dreadful look as I made every failed attempt to try;
That dreadful look as that made me wanna die.
That midnight day that would did reveal
Every secret that I did conceal.
That midnight day that you made real
As you crushed everything I did feel.
That was the time I rushed
Ta your side before you crushed
My head and heart into dust,
And explained it only as "I must."
Did I tell you "You were my first"?
Did I tell you "You were my worst"?
Did I tell you "We were cursed"?
Did I tell you "I would only burst"?
You must have forgot ta mention
The true identity of your intention.
I didn't tell you of my condition.
You didn't care for one in my position.
I didn't know you would just give me back.
I didn't know you turned coal black.
How'd I know the goal was to rack
Up the score by completing the track?
When did I agree ta this race?
When did I step off pace?
All I remember is the feel from staring into your face,
Burning me up faster than mace.
Have I truly gone mental?
With all this I was so careful.
My mistakes and life live as ol'.
All is grey, all is numb, all is dull.
