The Beginning

I've been up to Hell,
Been down to Heaven.
I'm now stuck in between
Both evils of all man.

Taunting with angels;
Put through total hell.
But it didn't matter
For it was all better well.

In council with devils,
Enjoyment of most fun.
But nothing of pleasure
Compares to the One.

Breathing under water;
Drowning above this air.
To decide which ain't
Is inside my prayer.

Though mind made up,
Past to present fulfill
The desires of all fate,
And we abide to His will.

Masked to hide deceit
And lie to thou face.
I have fallen off track;
I don't belong in this place.

Forgiveness begged
For the pain then
Caused about from my
Selfishness of him.

Changed now inside,
A new creature formed.
Acceptance awaiting.
For I cannot be conformed.

Longing to undo now
All my stupid mistakes.
For inside I battle with
All the ways about I think.

Armed to the death,
Please stand now with me.
Engaged with the monster
My present made out to be.

My sword stands lit,
Inflamed in such words
Spoken about during time
That kill and make hurts.

Amor be my shield
Of a time long ago.
Glistened in the tears
Of pain which I made so.

My strength now is
In the absence true
Of what we now have
But nothing do we do.

A secret weapon alas
Gives me the upper hand.
And, again, a chance yet
To maybe rule this land.

But yet still time now
Holds back my action.
For fools rush in, I'm
Trying to be wise again.

Wait along for this right
And victorious I'll become.
Erase this controlled way
And be happy. It's begun.