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My life is twist turning about
I'm too excited to sleep
Happiness has come my way
{Almost} too much there to keep

This feeling happens never
And it's not going away
Because from now on I'll be honest
And I'll say what I want to say

I've admitted to myself I'm gay
And it's like a weights been lifted
Why did I keep it hidden away?
Why did I keep a lid on it?

I wasn't ready to understand
Or see the path before me
But now I'm in a place where I'm
Excited by what's laid out before me

Even my eating's getting better
It's been 2 weeks since I purged
Been 2 weeks since I felt so lost
Since I even had the urge

Oh my god, I'm stronger
This is me... there is no crutch
I'm leaning... on nothing.
And I'm not wobbling about!

I really can't believe it
Everything is falling into place
And this smile is fixed upon me
It's real, one you can't displace

I'm... comfortable in my skin
And I feel like I could fly
And I'm happier now than ever
Not thinking of you or them. But 'I'.

That was 2 months 3 weeks ago.
Still no purging. (:

Still get the Grr days, but my life definatelys got more sparkle to it now.