Everything began when some of my friends told me to go on a website called habbo...
So i went on that site and started to like that game.
using my memory,I was 12 years old when he entered that website.
so i started to make a lot of friends on that site and started to care a lot about them even if they were cyber friends.
1 or 2 years later,
I met a girl named terri
i was friends with her and then i started to like her...
We dated for a long time
but i lied to her, we fighted alot and we finally broke up after 5 months.
Terri introduced me to a girl named Jen...
she was really pretty and really nice...
she was the kind of girls that when you told her something,
she could understand you and try to help you.
she turned into my best friend
we talked and talked and talked
i loved talking to her cause she would always light my day up.
time passed and i found out a guy named mike liked her and she liked him back...
I dont know why... i got jealous and realized i loved her.
i didn't even do my homework or care about school cause i wanted to talk to her or i was waiting for her to get on...
one day,she told me she loved me
and she gave me a really weird feeling inside...
butterflies? i think thats the word that better describes that.
i never asked her out and we were always fighting cause of Terri and some mistakes i did i wish i could take them back...
i got really hurt cause Terri was always making fun of me and trying to make me feel bad
saying things like :
YOU AREN'T WORTH IT YOU ARE JUST A PIECE OF SH*T AND JEN WOULD NEVER LIKE YOU PLUS SHE LIKES BOYS WITH A NICE BODY
so i gave up and i told myself what Terri said was true... I'm not worth it and Jen would never date me...
and if she did, we would have broken up with me in a minute.
i still talked to her but not as much as i used to.
she got mad at me and told me i had no chance with her anymore...
so one day i told her i really loved her and tried to explain my feelings and she told me she didn't know if her feelings for me have gone away
and that same day
mike asked her out...
and she asked me if it was okay
i said yea..don't worry about me its not my decision ... its yours and i want you to be happy...
but i felt really broken inside
i felt like i didn't wanna do anything...
this was the first time i really fell for someone
and i learned i wasn't born to love
someone... love just hurts you.
i still talk to her...
we are friends.
shes dating someone and it doesn't bother me anymore.
what i didn't like about her
is that she told me she loved me
but it never was true...
she was just playing with me
i didn't know if she was telling me the truth... or if it was a joke.
i used to fall in love easily
now i cant...
i don't know why
is it cause i got really hurt?
no matter how hard i try i cant like someone even a little...
