I see everyone around me.
They laugh, smile, have fun.
They're happy.
I think to myself,
"Why can't I be like that?"
Sure I laugh,
Sure I smile,
Sure I "have fun"
but it's all fake.
I can't laugh or smile,
without thinking
how much I hate myself.
I ofter catch myself
day dreaming about my death.
How I just want to get away from everything,
and everyone.
I hate how i feel.
What I want more than anything
is to laugh, smile, and have fun.
And not be faking.
