Damn It All

Damn it
Why did she return with him?
Is it not enough that my love has killed me?
Slaughtered with the night singing in my ears
And showing me how love had saved her!
Saved them
When I was left alone and on the outside
It doesn't snow anymore
But, by Hell, it always rains
In the storms in my heart
Draining my unshed tears
I always carried with me a dash of hope
A brief taste of true freedom
A faint flicker of light to hold back my darkness
Why could I not be the one to help her?
No one could wish for something more!
She filled my dreams
And haunted the daylight hours
I have only pleasant memories of my own delusions
Back from when I thought she loved me
Perhaps she once did
But I have faded into being
Nothing but something of her bitter nightmares
When she saw his damned angelic mug
With his sorry tales of pathetic woe
Well, damn him!
He is nothing but a house of cards
Waiting to fall
Damn him for his lies
His love is nothing but deceit!
How could it ever compare to my own?
My grim and consuming obsession
Utter devotion
That time has moulded
That time has sweetened
How can he think to compete?
How is it he stole her heart
From within my tight grip?
Is my heart too disfigured
For her to see some beauty in?
Is it too much to ask that she would love me?
Too much for someone to care!
Why should I give what I have been denied?
Damned compassion!
I was left outside too long!
A grey monochrome illusion
Damned lies!
Why would she lie to me?
I can surely take the truth
I have been damned by words for so long!
It is no loss
A tender kiss
Of my crimson rose
With my soul attached
In black thread
Yet it is disregarded
For his damned embrace
Why should I care?
I have denied my heart so much before
Keep it all, take it all
Damn it all.