Breaking Inside

Will I live to see the morn?
I hope not.
The sky will open up,
and in the morning glow,
I'll be dead.
Will I look upon the face of sorrow?
I think that I already have.
But maybe you did not see,
the tears that cross my cheeks.
I don't want you to hold me close in my time of darkness.
I know that I'll break inside your arms.
I wish that we could find a way around this life,
But I guess that I just wasn't meant to be.
Will I find a blue sky in the future?
To comfort me in my times of pain?
To keep me from falling away from me,
To keep me from going off the edge?
Will I be alive to see that sky?
Even if I am it will be dark.
Maybe one day things won't be the same.
Maybe I can save my life.
I really can't understand the things you see in me,
All the times you said I'm pretty.
I don't understand why you think I matter,
the world and my father don't seem to agree.
I see the things you say about me in you.
Why do I think you're just looking at yourself?
Maybe cuz the things I see in you I could never have,
their to wonderful and I'm not deserving.
Please don't hold me close to you like you love me,
I think I would break in your arms.
Then shatter into a million pieces,
and lay on the cold ground forever more.
Can I stop myself from going all the way?
Stop me from falling in the dark.
Can I keep myself alive for you?
Can I wait two years to die?