No where for me

You've left me on desolate grounds.
standing alone...unsure where to turn who to follow what to do.
this choice i cannot make... i want to blame you both but i know that its wrong to do.

love is powerful but so is friendship.
i love her as my best friend, but i love him too, just as she does. we both fell in love with him but while they were each others world i was third party.

then i became his extra... you were always ok with that but now you two are no more what do i do. you both mean the world to me...

my heart is breaking, sleepless nights continue, coping is failing more...suicide appeals more each passing moment. hidden thoughts and feelings deceive you both.

he had both of us now he is out of love with you but still loving you. impossible yet true. but now i feel feeble and weak i don't know which is right and which is wrong? where do i stand?

i cannot hurt either i would sooner die than cause pain to either of you, but confusion overwhelms me, and love and loss are forever present. tears are falling inside, scars are still appearing.

am i alone again...have i lost you both...am i dead or living...cause this feels like hell right now.