I am scared.
Am I scared of nothing or am I scared to loose?
I have fallen down and no one has come to help me up.
I've found my way here and don't know where to go from here.
So many things surround me and haunt me.
I can't stand this much longer.
But I can't bare the pressure.
I try to tell you how I feel and then you turn away and have a disgusted look upon your snarling face
When you ask me what's wrong and I am too frightened to tell you get mad and yell.
I have too many feelings inside and I try to hide it all and try to avoid everything around me.
Everything seems to fake when I am here, but as I look out the window there's another world out there for me that I will never find.
I try to have my feelings disappear and go into my past of shameless dreams.
But it won't happen tonight.
It won't ever go away.
You say you want to help but you just like to stay to make the pain remain
I stare out into nowhere and wish I was there all by myself.
With nothing better to do but stare out there.
I think of a better life but it just won't happen today.
Maybe in some other life I can be a better person.
But not today.
Not until the end of time.
The end of time brings music to my ears.
The beginning of it all scares me.
The time goes fast but when I watch the clock
I am wasting away.
Lie down and think of everything that has happened in life.
Good times and bad.
Am I worth living?
Or am I worth nothing?
I breath out and give in.
I need to stop that all and start all over again.
There might not be a better life out there for me.
But at least I am trying to do better then you and try what's best for both you and me.
I close my eyes just for tonight and think of what's right.
Shall I die tonight or awaken in the morning light and know that what I've done is right?
