A Fears Nightmare

I look down as the blood gushes from my veins,
I feel the loss of all my pains,
The way my blood slowly runs under the door,
I fall to the cold cement floor.
Soon my body grows all of these new fears,
Now my blood is mixed with tears,
I can feel the memories rush back in my head,
It reminds me why I'm so eager to be dead,
Why cant anyone share what i feel,
Cant they see i just cant heal,
my breath slowly but comely starts whittling away,
the thought feels so good but cold that I'll never have another day,
Every thing turns foggy and blurry,
slipping away my pain and my fury,
I only can here my screams because there silent but yet so violent,
mabey now I'll be in a better place,
And see gods wonderful face,
or maybe I'll still just be here,
with still the same fear,
it's getting darker and colder,
And all i need is a my tears to lean on a shoulder,
Why did this happen to my,
if only the could see,
Would they think I'm crazy,
Or would they realize how my life's been so hazy,
But there never understand or know,
because there the ones who made me sank so low,
I can feel my life on the line,
I know this is a sign,
theres so much blood it like a huge red sheet,
my heart just skipped its very last beat.