To my mom

Dear Mom,
I know you always had so much going for me. I always knew you cared..but that was a long time ago..this is now..like last week you told me no one would care if i died that moment, no one would come to help or find me, or that no one would even cry. I mean mom, come on..Im sorry Im not like your other daughter blond, beautiful, skinny, a doctor..Im sorry Im not Brian football && Track team Star, not the brightest pencil in the box but good enough for college..Im sorry Im not another perfect puzzle piece in you life! Or like last week you told me to hang my self because i was raped;and that was soposta be my fault? wear where you when i need help? oh thats right you where sitting on your ugly butt.I know Im the mistake, the regret, aka the \"fuged up\". I mean your my mom, shouldnt you at least care. No Im not perfect and neither are you. Like you said before no one would care if i pulled the trigger today, tomorrow, or the next day, or next...but you know what one day it will happen and you know i will never, ever forgive you for thing mean, hurtful, nasty things youve said..you said Im the dummy...take a look in the mirror Im not the one who has to explain to the rest of that family why my 14 year old daughter killed her self..remember mom it was because of you.

Sincerely,
Your fat, ugly, stupid, raped, and now dead daughter