He raped my soul

He rapped my soul
And left me to die
Alone in a world I hated
He made me lie

A dishonest broken trust
Only the beginning
Of a haunted life
I'm never ever winning

The years past along
But the scares never heal
Everything inside my mind
It all just seems so real

Depression is my body
My smile is so fake
I can't handle pain
Cause of one big mistake

He made me think it was ok
A little girl of nine
How was I to know
I thought it was fine

But soon I realized
I knew it was wrong
So I tried to stop it
But he was so strong

One day it stopped
He just walked away
As if it was nothing
I didn't know what to say

I felt ashamed
So confused inside
I had no idea
I just wanted to hide

I'm older much wiser
But still so unsure
I feel so betrayed
I couldn't handle it anymore

My boyfriend wants my body
I give in to him
But I cry at night
My life's so grim

He doesn't know
Cause I'm to afraid
To say the words
I've often prayed

God give me strength
I need to know
Will I move on?
Or continue feeling low

I need my life back
I'm just a little girl
Trapped in the past
Wanting to be free