Confusion

I don't understand I hate you so much yet I cant get you off my mind. I don't know if I'm missing you or its something else I want to find. Everything around me reminds me of you in some way. I'm struggling with out you each and everyday. I know your not right for me but something is telling me you are. I know this is stupid I'm taking this way too far. I miss you but I hate you at the same time. Tell me... is this a crime? I'm so confused I don't know what to do. You don't even understand what your putting me through. There are so many things I hate about you... so many things that are wrong... but all the good things in my mind know how to stay Strong. Whenever I see couples I think of where we would be... But we just don't get along thats something that I wouldn't like to see. I don't know why I keep thinking of you... because I know it wouldn't have worked between us two. I think its mostly because I feel alone. You wont even pick up your phone... You said you cared for me. How did you get over it so fast? Please tell me what you did so this confusion will not last. I'm getting over you more and more each day. But something inside me is telling me to stay.