Smileing sadness

I pretend to be happy when all I want to do is yell and cry.
I wear this smile just wishing it would die.

I hide in the tears that come with so much pain.
Just wraped up all inside, But when another day comes I just wish I would have died.

In a slumber sleep,warm in bed,
this life is so wonderfull yet all I want is for these emotions to be dead.

I want happynss too cry
and sadness to smile
I want to go forward
while I walk backwards every mile.

I want tears to be dry
confusion to be found
I want to sream and not make a sound.

I want happyness to feel sad
and sadness to feel so happy
I want everything the way it was...

When I was in my glory.....