Pretending.

To be completely honest, I am happy for you,
but I wish you would have thought of me first.
You never even asked me if it would be okay,
you two are prefect together, you're both jerks.

I was never over you, I hope you know that,
I still thought about how things ended with us.
We were a really good couple, didn't you think?
We never had any complications at all, no fuss.

Yes, yes, I am happy now, with my current love,
but I cannot be fine with the way things are.
I want to be able to be around you two, I do,
But for my heart, I think that it is just too hard.

You guys are cute together, you know it's true,
you broke someone's heart, and you seem fine.
You don't seem to show any remorse for it at all,
I doubt that I could do that, I'd think of it all the time.

You guys don't care how anyone else feels,
except how you are feeling yourself, right?
If I were you I wouldn't go through with it all,
I don't think I would be able to sleep at night.

I know you can't help the way that you feel,
but you can control the way that you act.
You know you've hurt people's feelings,
and sweetie, you can't hide from the facts.

Hey girl, you're supposed to be my best friend,
why didn't you just come to talk to me first?
I would have listened to what you had to say,
but you are dating my ex-boyfriend, and that hurts.

Even though I am with someone new,
you know it hurts to see you sit on his lap.
I wonder sometimes if I ever crossed his mind,
but then I remember, that's just a load of crap.

I am beginning to think I never meant anything,
to either of you guys, just someone you knew.
Did I even make a small impact on your life?
I sometimes just want to say that we are through.

I wish I didn't feel the way that I do about you two,
because things would just be easier for everyone.
I will just have to act like everything is okay with me,
I will close my eyes and pretend that I have moved on.

© Katie Gammon. February 2007.