In my life I've wasted so much time
Seen too much crime
And spent every dime
I've felt great and depressed
I've stood out and hung wit the rest
I've been beaten, and beat others
I've got high and learned ta lie
I wanna change now
But I don't know how
I need help
But help I can't get
I wanna just be normal
For maybe just a day
But in I can't fit
So behind some disguise I sit
Tryin' not to cry or throw a fit
I've seen ta much ta be just a kid
My mind I would love to be rid
Or just have a good friend and be hid
But I can't
I have like no control
And I drain my mind wit rap and roll
Still I don't want my life ta be this dull
While I feel empty and depressed
I want ta ask ta be full
But I'm rejected
As if I'm defected
Weirdest freak I've been elected
I just wanna live
Just ta be left alone
By this world
And everythin' else
Ta just have a girl and live peaceful
But it ain't real
Merely just something I feel
Just a feeling
Nothing really
But that ain't true
Cause this is me, not you
My life I want ta be a new
A new one, that's what I want
I'll say it loud
I'll say it blunt
This is my crazy psychotic stunt
This is my hunt
My hunt for myself
