I never truly thought that you'd betray me,
a day had come that I never wished to see.
You're the same as all the rest - no matter what you think,
even as you try; in my list of love you sink.
I knew it would happen - but pretended it would not,
my mind was screaming 'How could you?' while my heart began to rot.
I let this transformation happen; because I know it's true.
I know that life is unfair - an example would be you.
I clung to you for love; to feel that I had a place,
a short rest stop of life - the unforgiving race.
I knew then and there that what I saw wasn't real.
The feelings that I felt,
the way you made me feel.
I only saw what I wanted, the light to heal my dark,
But I had pushed you away too late; you had already left your mark.
I held myself alone; brought up all my walls.
I couldn't let it stop me; I had to suck it up; stand tall.
I pushed away the ones I trusted merely due to hate.
The small bits of love they had brought me - began to dissipate.
I let myself drown in my own little world, in my head - my life had unfurled.
I lay sprawled in the corner as a broken glass doll.
In a sealed world - I had not even begun my fall.
People moved around me; pretending I wasn't real,
I didn't care at all because I couldn't really feel.
Even in my darkest hour I could only remember your light caressing touch and the sensation of your arms embracing and reassuring me into contentment. I could never escape from you, even when you had left me, I was still in pain - but I could cope. Because there wasn't anything else I COULD do.
