How can I explain
the state of mind you put me in
I am spun by good and evil
not sure which side will win
You lift my heart higher than the clouds
but then i realize what I have done
And it seems most times
The evil side has won
Now I know that true love does not exist
Only sex and obsession are true
And when you think you feel true love
Do not even try to bring that relationship through
I wish I could believe that you loved me
I wish I could say I did not cheat
but neither of those are true
Once again my heart has been beat
I hate you so much for this
Yet I think I love you still
but wait love's not real
Someday I will leave, I will
Leave this world... leave everything
my heart can't take what you do to me
I am so broken and confused
I wish I could make you see
Maybe I'll just get so drunk
That I don't get too filled with fear
So that I don't drop the knife
When I bring death so near
Then I can drunkenly drown you out
Drown out fake love, obsession, and you
because without dying...
I do not see how I can make it through
