Drown

I want to drown
drown under the sea
never to be found
so I can't be me

I want to drown
drown in all your care
to take away my pain
but you are never there

I want to drown
drown in alcohol
forget each day
by feeling weak and small

I want to drown
drown out every sound
of my family yelling
as teardrops hit the ground

I want to drown
choking to my death
drowning in my blood
gasping for breath

I want to drown
just disappear
leave all I love
I cannot take it here

I want to drown
drown out the past
drown out the future
happiness won't last

I want to drown
drown in this sex
I do not want to leave
and face reality

I want to drown
in what's impure and wrong
I cannot be a good person
I am just not that strong

I want to drown
in makeup and dye
To cover up my ugliness
but I am not matter what I try

I want to drown
drown in all this smoke
that relaxes and releases
all the words you spoke

I am going to drown tonight
and never face tomorrow
with my shining blade
I will drown in all my sorrow...